What’s the one thing that you have forgotten!!!

Woke up today because I was unable to sleep. Instead of staring at the ceiling I got up and made a cup of tea.

It’s a quiet, cold and overcast morning and I started to listen to some music and something came to my mind.

“You don’t have to get it right the first time” – Unknown

Lately, I’ve been feeling stuck and in a rut. Even the images that I have been working on lately have all started to look the same. This would have been fine if I was working on a series but I am not, which has been making me really unhappy.

I love creating images that surprises each time so coming up with something that’s different each time is something I strive for. Not only that, I get bored really easily and just to tell you how much, here are a few fun facts.

I read 2 books at the time and work on 3 to 4 images at a time. Mind you only on the image breakdown. I also have to work with music or an old movie playing in the background in order to quiet my mind and help me focus.

After remembering that little quote, I felt like a huge weight has been lifted of my chest. As an observer looking at the highlight of everyone else’s life, I feel like everybody has it figured out and I am struggling to even keep up with my own life. Yes I am struggling, but only sometimes. Every other time, I am able to cope.

Do I have it figured out? Hell NO!! But who on this planet does? Otherwise life would be very predictable and boring.

So far this year, I’ve created 4 images this year. Are they good? By my own personal standard, I can do a lot better and I have done a lot better. Not only I am not feeling like myself as yet, I am fighting to get there or even close to who I was. As an eternally impatient person, it is difficult to wait to heal but it is what is required.

Why am I relieved about remembering this quote?

For every success, they were 100 battles that were fought physically and mentally to get there. Battles that we fight behind closed doors, that nobody talks about. I am going to share a few of mine with you at later posts.

As you all know, I love photography and without it I probably would not know what to do with myself


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5 Comments Add yours

  1. paula graham says:

    Oh…I saw understand this song sheet you are speaking from, one is one’s own greatest critic but…it can lead to great things. I love your dark work, all your work!

    1. pammyv02 says:

      Nice to know that I am not alone. Many thanks Paula

  2. I completely understand, and I have enough times like this to fill a book. But I must say, this being one’s own worst critic stuff can get out of hand. From my perspective your work is magnificent. I would even say inspiring. If a primary purpose of art is to communicate, from my viewpoint you’re quite successful. That said, each work as a step along the way, and what would we be if we didn’t grow?

    1. pammyv02 says:

      Maybe we are hard on ourselves to protect/prepare ourselves from outside critics. I am still working on getting where you think I am. Many thanks for the amazing compliments

      1. Critics can exist for a number of reasons: to curate, to focus, to provide very precise commentary – usually the more precise the more helpful – or, conversely, to simply criticize. But it is amazing to see how many seem to think that their job is simply to criticize. Reminds me of a very old quote from Richard Pryor, “have you ever known a 10-year-old kid who said that when he grows up he wants to be a critic?“ One can take a critical eye to one’s own work according to one of the earlier functions I listed and improve one’s art. Or you can take a critical eye to your work according to the last function I listed and beat yourself into the ground. I think your work is exactly where it is. No more, no less. And I think it’s great. Any conscientious person is on a road to improvement. The Road never ends. So long as you’re further along the road today than you were yesterday, everything is fine. It’s good to aim for tomorrow. It’s not so helpful to beat oneself up for not being in tomorrow when it is still only today.

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