The waste of it all

One of my biggest fears is the fear of wasting time. This fear is so ingrained in me that I find myself feeling guilty for not even working sometimes.

I grew up with having my days planned out including after school activities so I guess I was trained in advance.

My days are currently set out in this. On days that I am work, I usually finish finish around 7pm or 9pm which means when I get I am glued to photoshop until my eyes are about to close.

On my days off, I start with the gym then breakfast followed by some more edits. On weekends, you will find me either out taking some images and then getting lunch by myself. It almost therapeutic having a day to myself along with processing my thoughts. These days also allow me to think things through and come up with new ideas. Hopefully some new things that I will be implementing very soon.

Although having days always packed means that I have a hard time dealing with other things sometimes including meeting with friends or family. As my grandmother used to say, if something is important for you, you will make time. So I do make days especially for meeting friends and family which allows me to relax, laugh and especially recharge.

Unfortunately this fear is still in me on a daily basis even more so since i unexpectedly lost a person very close to me a few years ago. It made me realise that life is unexpected and short so I plan to make the most of it and create to my heart content and use the fear as a driving force.


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4 Comments Add yours

  1. Wow! Look what you did!

    1. pammyv02 says:

      😊 Thank you so much

  2. paula graham says:

    I do relate to your sentiments so well but I have finally learned that ‘wasting time’ can have value also in accepting your role and lot in life.

    1. pammyv02 says:

      Never thought about it that way. Thanks for your perspective

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