Each I switch on my computer lately it is to edit an image or sometimes two or 3 images at the time. I’m not saying this is a bad thing but it is what I love to do. To be honest it is what I am passionate about.
I’m passionate about the process and I love the way it helps me compartmentalise my daily life. I currently have a new job and I’m struggling to find me feet. Don’t get me wrong, it is a good job but I simply need more.
So after, I get home switch on my computer and I zone out. This is my world, it is something I can control and it is something I love to do. But lately, I’ve realised that I haven’t getting the same excitement. Things have become stale because I’ve become comfortable and too complacent about what I create.
I love cityscape and architecture but dear Lord, I need more. I forgot something essential. To try and learn new things and get out of my comfort zone. Allow for things to go terribly wrong and learn from it. Allow myself to experiment more. I forgot how to be an amateur.
I’ve never been comfortable being called a professional or allow anybody to put my work in a category. I’ve lived a life where you are told you are meant to things a certain way so I did without questioning it. I made plans which fell through and knocked me sideways but I still haven’t learned much from them. I’ve failed so many times than I can count but I am still trying to learn those lessons.
The only way for me to do that is to truly remind myself why I love being an amateur. The word itself means « Lover « in French. For me, I think that I will always be more comfortable with being an amateur than anything else. What is wrong with that. It allows me to play and try new things. Will people like, I don’t really care about that. My aim here is simply to play and draw with lights.
I want to to more still life, I’ve made sketches and I have a few ideas that I am yet to try out. I’ve currently been obsessed with beauty and film so I am think of giving them a go as well. The next thing on the agenda is learning to develop in the darkroom. My 35mm camera has literally been my best friend for the past year or so. Here area few images from the rolls that I’ve captured
In the spirit of amateurism, what new things do you guys want want to learn?
Please share with me. I can’t wait to read your answers.
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